let's try this again

wow, its been a year. a full year, and then some, since all the eagerness and excitement of starting a blog was pushed to the side by…anything… and everything else. disappointed, yea i’d say so. but i think most people who start a blog must go through this at one point or another. maybe not... oh well, i did.

i cannot begin to sum up what i’ve learned over the past year. truth…ha yea i’ve discovered some. a great deal in fact. psh… the past week alone. but i can't sit here lamenting the fact i’ve epically failed to write. i’d like to say i’m turning over a new leaf. this is a fresh start and a new commitment of dedicated writing. again i’d like to say that, but i know better. even now as i write, i have a paper due tomorrow, 2 on thursday, not to mention 2 sermons and 3 major papers due within the month. what i can say is i’ve regained my desire to write or better yet regained my desire to share.

i think in my last attempt i felt i had to say something profound every time i sat down to write. i wanted to prove i was becoming some great theologian and was going to change the world by the work i produced. haha turth discoverey right there…not gonna happen.

instead i’ve come to the realization i have no clue what i’m talking about. at least that is to say i’m just barley figuring it out. the only thing i am sure of is there is a God. Jesus is real. and somehow, for some reason, this thing called grace has been given to me. anything more than that and i must bow out speechless.

okay that’s probably a bit mellow dramatic and yet an understatement… i’ve also learned the hebrew alphabet since my last post…

so here’s the deal. i hope to write more. i plan to write more. but i make no promises of frequency, length, subject matter, or quality. i imagine at times you will find me verbose, vague, witty, annoying, sarcastic (failed new year’s resolution), wise, contradictive, unthought-out, pessimistic, optimistic, depressed, random, euphoric, foolish, happy, condescending, prideful, sad, lacking in faith, full of doubt, overwhelmed, joyful, hopeful, inspired, enlightened, confused, frustrated, repentant, at peace, and what ever else my brain cannot think of right now that i experience within any given 15 second span of time. but mostly i hope you see me as honest, seeking, and growing.

feel free to challenge me, i might or might not answer. encourage me, again might or might not answer. or just simply join me in wonderin’ what God was thinking when He created, saved, and called me to whatever it is this life entails back on this journey for Truth. (see how I did that at the end…related it back to the title of the blog…)